I am Pissed

The Circle presents on 5/30/24 

Emotions: I am Pissed

Good Day, 

Today is a special holiday 

men want me yet I am too afraid to stay 

not from me but they can't treat me how I deserve so why commit and celebrate Mother's Day 

I am beyond committed in my eyes as the treasure and the disguise 

I understand the levels of hypocrisy yet if it was my holiday I would want to be alone and celebrate me 

I am amazing to myself 

yet my disguise says otherwise 

I can elevate my voice in a rush besides picking sides to unleash the devilish lies

sometimes the truth is what hurts the most 

not sometimes but all of it 

Being accused of doubt

Being accused of theft of alcohol is beneath me 

If someone ask me for anything it is because they need me 

no hesitation of giving 

yet yelling and screaming became a religion 

I called a nigha the other day 

I heard loud cacophonic voices and refused to commit to his time and place 

women gossiping and a man listening 

TERRIBLE TIMES WE LIVE IN 

BESIDES men making a living and committing I rather be single than un-forgiven 

Cus if i choose to shoot I will lose everything I had worked diligent for 

I will upgrade my vocab instead of training a dog 

I will forgive e for the harsh deeds I allowed in my space 

I rather choose me then celebrate Mother's Day 

Yet I have an amazing mom who puts up with liquor and other's harsh relaities I had to stop teaching that love is only from within if other's are bringing you down your more than what you think you can accomplish 

That's why I'm hurt 

One day no gift yet money in direct deposits 

I celebrate my mom by leaving her alone 

cus I have not done nothing for her to be proud of 

Yet, single no kids, doctrates degree but all that is beneath me 

Celebrating my assumptions and pre alcoholic days 

Cus once I am rich I will drank my money away 

God/MAMA taught me never let a bitch see you stressed and 

Never let a Nigga see you need them 

Biggest lessons are within 

yet I choose to let go and be solid in solitude 

I rather a nigha pay my bills Cus I need him too lol

but my work ethic is proof I celebrate mother's day in even routes cus the lessons told were not from her mouth or mind 

I learned her demeanor as she experienced hard times 

I learned to engage in drought and not let the fear of losing determine your outcome 

I learned to sit quiet kill with my silence and allow others to be jealous but not to jealous 

engage through the weathers stay covered up cus what is beneath is HEAVEN